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  Should you feel cheated; are you missing out?

  How can one let the outside things in?

  A myriad of fragmented realities

  The joining of two…conceptual

  This disparity; the foundry of intolerance

  I keep following the perimeter

  Short sight can shift into zealotry

  I can’t see around what envelops

  Can I even breech this bulwark?

  Could I give up what I have?

  Would the detachment be a clean start?

  Could I maneuver without past reference?

  Without presumptive limitations

  My comfort zone is gone

  Inaugural presuppositions

  Redundancy with a thin veneer

  Passing on what is passed again

  Admirable intentions for choice

  Futile

  Pull

  You reap what you sow

  From the beginning of time

  Sowing with more than I know

  My arrogance sublime

  Histrionic tug-of-war

  No smiles; no ray of hope

  I re-think what it is I’m fighting for

  I regretfully admit

  We’re not stretching a rope

  Sick to death of being reactive

  Yet not big enough to fill my own shoes

  Longing for but turning away the abstersive

  I’m at a loss for what words to use

  Wise counsel has lain before me

  An honorable and well thought out course

  A vision replayed in my head I can see

  Still the seeds that I sow are poisonous

  Perplexing conundrum

  Has my black heart made this so arduous?

  Tell me I’m not the rule of thumb

  Can any good from this egress?

  I find great comfort in seclusion

  Though I put on my happy social face

  My destiny is a forgone conclusion

  Yet I won’t know it because I’m out of place

  Though we don’t want to admit

  We are sometimes at the mercy of other’s emotions

  This problem seems minor on the face of it

  Once again, the wound reopens

  From the mind of the young

  Comes wisdom as the bell for this chapter peals

  Rolling off a well disguised, sharp tongue

  He now knows how the rope feels

  Purge

  Where the addling once skulked

  Had its way; struck with force

  The levee is once again strong

  Nothing left to sidestep my will

  Needles in my heart

  Not equipped then to avert

  Concealing the pain consumed

  Feeling hollow, betrayed, morose

  Time has brought back my resolve

  I discard the angst and invite solace

  Looking to what I have

  Releases me from my odious bent

  Disengaging, letting go

  Moves my mood to insouciant

  I’ve broken obsession’s hold

  Choler dried up and spent

  Moving forward moving up

  Drawing from lessons learned

  Self-exoneration

  I am liberated from this burden

  My freedom is birthed from absolution

  Cut evolution off at the pass

  Wishing you no emotional restitution

  A dangerous, dark, and uneven path

  Put It Down

  I need to put this down

  Break the grip I’ve had so long

  Bankrupt emotions a ghost town

  Tainting my sense of right and wrong

  I need to know that it’s coming

  And then when it rises to attack

  Foreknowledge will render it to nothing

  Yet failure forces me to double back

  Having something this close

  And part of me for so long

  This thing that resides in me is toxic

  Like a smiling liar it strings me along

  Fueling the fire

  Ebb and flow

  Turn circumstances dire

  Contempt has my will in tow

  Fear drives me to the truth

  Yet its strength wanes

  Turning a deaf ear soothes

  Failing I’m destined to be at pains